im terribly upset, and the one who made me so upset doesn't even know im upset.

everything is more important than me. im nothing to you. or probably just sth to slot into your schedule when you just happen to be free. i don't like this feeling. am i too naive or am i expected too much from you? things have changed, and people have changed. maybe what you said in the past is not applicable now.

you were working on sunday on probably the tiredness made you forget that you were supposed to meet me after your work. i waited like a fool at home, and then you tell me you're very tired. okay, fine.

you knew im not working on monday, and i was expecting you to meet me when you book out. but when you msg me in the morning it's all one word messages and replies. you didn't mention anything about meeting me, that's why i went to work. then you happily tell me you're going out with camp mate. do you still remember how you used to fetch me from work and you said you don't mind coming all the way to my workplace to fetch me even though it's only for like 1 or 2 hours, cos you are happy to see me? i don't understand why you don't do the same things now. maybe im just too troublesome for you.

then today, when i called you you told me you just reach town. like hello? im working in town. you don't even bother to meet me or what. i told you im carrying lots of stuff and my bag is very heavy. did you even bother to offer help? you told me you're sick in the morning and poom, at night you're so energetic to go out? am i really so insignificant?

even if you go out with me, you tell me you're tired. and you can sit down for like half an hour, and reluctant to leave that seat. is going out with me really that tiring for you?

i hate this kind of fucking attitude from you. friends are always more important than me. sometimes i really wish we are just friends, at least you got endless topics with your friends. now like now, i don't even know what to sms you and tell you over the phone. you always give me that cannot-be-bothered attitude on the phone, if not you will keep saying im fat. it's not like you don't know i don't like it and yet you keep going on and on.

i don't know what's happening but this relationship had come to a point where im just too tired to quarrel with you.

im really tired.

♥ 11:08:00 PM