after much thinkings, poly life isn't as good as i thought i would be. it's not about school work, but about the people around me.

you'll never know who's fake and who's real. for me, i show it very clearly i like you or not. if i don't like you i'll be passing sarcastic remarks and try all sorts of ways to irritate you, and even quarrel with you. if i like you, i'll be helping you with stuffs and all. but some people are just so good in hiding things, that you don't know if they are real or fake. so i should applying what i have learnt at dfs on life: be fake to those who look fake to you. if you don't like someone just show it and don't fake as if you like that person. the feeling sucks.

imagine 3 of you hang out together, yet 2 of them are talking among themselves and you are being left out. and when someone joins in, there is a total of 4 people, and the 3 of them talks among themselves again. you are being left out again, what kind of shit is this?

imagine you go shopping with some girls, and you follow them to zara, topshop, mango that kinda shop but when you go into those shops in far east, they didn't even follow and they just went missing.

A always help B to copy lecture notes in class. When you ask A to help you, she is so super duper reluctant to do it.
When you ask B to help you do something, she sound so unwilling.
What do you call this? Selfishness?

people say treat others the way you want them to treat you. but it doesn't seem so for my case. ):

i seriously don't like the feeling of being treated in that kind of shit way. i rather be alone at home or somewhere else than having this kind of treatment in school. and this explains why i skipped so many lessons (if i can) this semester. i typed all these here because i know they won't bother to read my blog so it doesn't make a difference if i blogged about them.

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♥ 3:08:00 PM