i sort of quarrelled with mummy again. =( over what i don't know. she pissed me off the other day by plucking the leaf of the flowers dear gave me. kinda xin tong over the leaf but ya, it's her character's problem. she thinks that it's ok cox it's just a leaf. but she doesn't know that the problem lies on her character. it's not her things and she just pluck/spoil it like that.
she pissed me off yesterday again by saying i ai mu xu rong. and she says i am greedy! was super angry i tell you so the whole night i keep talking to her in a very xialan manner and i think i pissed her off also. yes that's my intention.
back to the topic. i think she thinks i whine too much and she started lecturing me. so i din bother to talk back and wanted to go sleep cox i'm just too tired. and then daddy came home and she showed that kind of
face and daddy asked her what happened. she started her whole long list of negative comments on me and then i got scolded =
so i hated her. but after that i start to think. and then i stop hating her.
if i had been a good girl following all her instructions and had a better attitude, she won't
hate dislike me so much. maybe it's painful for her to see her daughter turning
this way.
if i had study hard for my PSLE and do well, i won't end up in SJC. maybe i will end up in cedar(she wished i was there) and the people there are my motivation to study, i won't be failing amaths.
and after much thinkings.. she starts to dislike me from the day i get my PSLE results. i disappointed her. i should have done much better than my sister. but sadly i did super badly. from that time onwards she doesn't have hopes on me. now, she hope i can make it to poly and not ite.
i'm not performing up to my standard. i want to be the 2nd in class like what i did when i was in p1-p4. i don't want to disgrace my parents. i'm not a stupid girl and i can do it!
bankok messaged me on msn just now and that's what he said:
No matter how far down the wrong road you've gone. TURN BACK says:
u are actually a very nice girl
No matter how far down the wrong road you've gone. TURN BACK says:
but unfortunately u mix with the wrong company.
No matter how far down the wrong road you've gone. TURN BACK says:
and u dunno.
No matter how far down the wrong road you've gone. TURN BACK says:
its a waste.
No matter how far down the wrong road you've gone. TURN BACK says:
i dedicate my nick to you anyway.
No matter how far down the wrong road you've gone. TURN BACK. But do it before its too late. says:
a pity.
No matter how far down the wrong road you've gone. TURN BACK. But do it before its too late. says:
that a nice person has gone to waste..
No matter how far down the wrong road you've gone. TURN BACK. But do it before its too late. says:
Friends are like the buttons of the elevator, they can bring you up, they can also bring you down. unfortunately it seems like yat ling seems to be heading downwards
he's right. only if he had appeared much earlier to enlighten me.
=(
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eyebrow threading is a torture i tell you. i went for eyebrow threading yesterday and it's so bloody pain and it increased the racism in me. now i hate
ah nehs.
